It has been a few days, I'm feeling quite down. I don't know if this is what being down is but I think this probably is. I don't feel motivated to do anything and I get negative vibes lol. I think this is because I have nothing to do. Right now, I have given all the entrance exams and even the results are out. I scored 45 in CSIT's entrance exam which gave me a rank of 3004. That's not a nice rank. But in BIT, I scored better. I scored 69 and ranked 76. That's pretty good, I guess. No! it's good. I will get a seat in Patan Multiple Campus. I'm not sure about Amrit Science College though. I really wish I can get admission in ASCOL. The admission list was supposed to be out today but it was extended and I think it will be out most probably the day after tomorrow (Sept. 22, 2024), not sure though.
Back to me being down cuz why not?? I was scrolling X until now. I had a small bug to fix in my portfolio which I created a few days earlier. Someone told me about the bug (can I even call it a bug? idk). I knew about it all day but as I was feeling down, I was not motivated to do anything. I still am not motivated to do anything but I felt like I had to fix that error in my portfolio. So, here I am. Fixed it and now I have no idea what to do.
I had also thought about downloading the contents of this blog and deleting the blog but I think I won't be doing that anymore, I think. I feel like if I were to read this in the future, I might feel something, idk though. I am reading in the future, I just wanna say hi to me. If I'm not wrong, I have written something like this in the previous post as well lol.
I think I am feeling the way I am feeling because I have nothing to do. Today, I thought of creating a web app. I had been thinking of doing something like but I just had not found anything interesting to make but today, I did. But now when I think about it, it is not different from 4chan. So. basically what I have thought about making is a website where you can upload images, see images uploaded by other people and also comment on them but you won't need to login/register.
Yea, that sounds totally like 4chan. Should I not make it?? I am confused now. Actually, I wanted to make something in Django. I have technically made a website but it's more JavaScript and very little Django. If I were to remove one certain feature from that website, I would not even need Django. So, I wanted to make something that actually needs Django and nothing else is coming to my mind. I want to make something unique. It can be simple but needs to be creative and something that people might have not thought of.
Hmmm. Now, when I think about it, I don't think I can think of something like that. For now, I think I might have to stick with the 4chan-kinda website. I should have started making it today but again, feeling down. Maybe I'll start from tomorrow. I think making that will probably take me 2 weeks or so. I know, that sounds like a huge time for making something that sounds simple but yea, that's me. I know what I know. I came to know about how much time I need to make something after CS50W's problems. I did this seriously and the problems were not easy. It took me more than a week to solve each problem.
Also, Dashain is coming and this will probably be my last post before Dashain. Dashain does not feel like it used to do before. About Dashain, I remember a line I read from class 10's Nepali book. I don't remember the line exactly but the line felt really well written. It was in an essay written by Sudha Tripathi. The name of the essay was, I think, "Hamro Sanskriti". I would search it up right now but the electricity just cut off. Sad. This paragraph was supposed to be about Dashain. Yeah, as I was saying, Dashain does not feel like Dashain anymore. It definitely feels special and specially when you hear the Dashain tune. It's called Mangalshree Dhun or something very similar. I knew the name of that yrr. And about Dashain not feeling like it used to, I don't think I can explain how exactly. I just feel like something is missing.
Oh wow, the electricity is back. I was actually thinking of stopping but maybe not yet. I will definitely search the line I was talking about earlier and also put it here if I do find it. Okay. I found it. Seems like it was not in class 10's book but in class 11's and the name is not "Hamro Sanskriti" but "Sanskriti ko Naya Yatra". I tried copy-pasting but didn't work. Maybe Nepali fonts are not supported here. Who knows. I tried adding the fonts but it didn't work. Maybe I don't know how do it idk. Anyways, I am going to read that now. Just read that line. It felt really nice. If I could have, I would have included the line here but I just can't. I also watched a short video about the author lol. Reading that line made me want to read books now. I've always wanted to read. But I just can't read. I feel like you need a lot of patience to read a book and I just don't have that in me.
I think I have to stop now. I was feeling down but now, I am much better. I could write more but it has already become too long.
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